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There are many things in life that make you happy, there are many things that have the opposite effect. If you're careful to focus on what makes you happy and decide to go out there and do it, then your quality of life can improve dramatically. You've been taught to be happy all the time. Not everyone on this earth feels happy all the time. Life is filled with ups and downs while attempting to have more positive experiences. You're afraid of what others will think. It's surprising but most people don't think about you half as much as you think they do.

THIS IS YOUR LIFE.

And you get to choose what makes you happy. Nobody else. Aside from breaking the law or other dodgy behavior, you must decide to do what makes you happy no matter what others think. And generally, when you do things that make you happy you'll find out you were more afraid of you imagination that their true reaction anyway. You don't know if you can do it. Trying something new is always going to push your comfort zone. There is a time when everyone starts to learn something new and they suck at it. Every great, good mediocre musician, actor, dancer, business person, and sports star has failed along the way of their journey. You don't think you have the time. Being busy is perhaps the biggest excuse for not doing the things that make you happy. But if you spend your life focusing on the things you think you have to do rather than the things you want to do, well.. That's a little backwards. When you make the things you love a priority, then they'll get done. Where else in your life do you put everyone else ahead of what you truly want as well? You think that you're gonna live forever. Life is short and you wake up each morning with a decision. Either your going to do the things that make you happy or you're gonna scrape though another day in survival mode. Once you've started doing more things that make you happy, your life will get a whole lot brighter. It's time to do what makes you happy. No one else is going to create your life for you. You can decide whether to fill your life with things that make you happy or constantly put them off for another day. So do what you want.

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Siapa tak sakit kalau kita cuba jadi other half for someone but still dikatakan yang kita ni tak memahami dia? Walaupun kita cuba but still dapat respond yang sama? Why? Takpelah awak.

Saya dah biasa kena macam ni. Sekeras kepala saya dan semati hati saya pun awak anggap, saya still nak mencuba. Awak je yang butakan mata tu nak nampak semua benda saya buat. Memang awak dah tunjuk yang saya ni macam takda apa pun bagi awak. Saya terima semuanya dengan seluas luas hati saya. Sedangkan awak dah banyak kali ulang benda yang sama. Saya ni macam dah takda apa bagi awak. Awak tak anggap saya ni penting, awak takda nampak yang saya cuba nak bag kasih sayang, cinta, rindu, penting, semuanya dekat awak. Awak tunjuk yang saya ni kosong. Like I'm lost everything from you. Saya memang betul betul rasa tawar hati. Hari hari saya ingat awak saya yang sebak. Saya yang rasa sakit. Saya jugalah yang cuba happy kan diri saya walaupun awak tahu takda siapa boleh bagi saya ceria melainkan atas usaha saya sendiri. Sebab tu saya pilih jalan untuk diam daripada terus berkata. Memang kata kata saya tajam lebih dari mata pisau. Tapi bila saya cuba awak tak nampak. Yang negativenya semua pada saya. Saya tahan, sampai saya tak tertahan nak hadap semuanya. Takpe lah awak. Mungkin awak dah nampak yang saya ni tak memenuhi kehendak or keperluan awak. Saya dah sangat sangat terbiasa duduk sendiri hadap sendiri tahan sendiri. Sangat terbiasa pupuk hati sendiri. Saya just ada doa je yang boleh bagi saya kuat dari azali lagi. Awak tak nampak apa saya hadap dan awak pun tak rasa apa yang saya rasa. Saya kasar tapi saya masih perlukan orang yang boleh bagi saya bermanja kasih. Tapi saya dah boleh terima hakikat yang semuanya tak mudah dapat melainkan usaha diri sendiri. Sebab saya dah pernah kena.

Saya nak awak tahu, saya tak perlukan seseorang membuka hati saya atau bagi saya kebahagiaan dalam keadaan saya bersedih macam yang awak cakapkan tu. Saya cuma buat apa yang saya perlu buat sampai kan saya boleh terlupa yang saya still ada masalah. Saya tak perlukan seseorang melengkapkan kekosongan hati saya, sebab saya pernah rasa hilang segalanya. Dan saya sendiri cari jalan untuk penuhi rasa kosong saya. Mungkin awak akan fikir saya ni mudah datang dan mudah pergi macam tu je. Tapi awak tak fikir even saya cakap macam mana pun saya still rasa sakit tu. Sedangkan awak tahu orang yang selalu ada dengan saya pun still tak boleh nak dengar luahan saya. Sebab tu saya pilih untuk pendam segalanya. Biar saya sendiri yang rasa. Dan saya lupakan.

Mudah untuk awak menilai keburukkan saya. Tapi saya pasti tak mudah untuk awak terima hakikat apa yang saya cakap. Just leave me alone. Saya tak semudah yang awak anggapkan. Sebab semuanya saya dah terbiasa! Dah terbiasa ada masalah dalam diri dh terbiasa settle kan sendiri! Saya hilang abah yang selalu bermanja dengan saya, yang selalu terima apa saya nak buat, yang selalu bagi kata kata semangat bila saya ada masalah. Saya hilang along saya yang selalu jadi peneman dalam hidup saya. Saya hilang orang yang lebih penting dalam hidup saya! Awak ada nampak ke saya ceria dengan orang yang saya ada? Saya dah biasa terima hakikat yang saya terpaksa pendam apa saya dapat! Semua ni awak tak pernah tahu! Awak tak pernah tahu punca hati saya jadi keras macam ni. Banyak benda saya lalui awak tak nampak. Sampai awak kata itu ini pun saya still pertahankan diri saya. Saya cuba sampaikan kenapa saya jadi macam ni tapi saya still tak mampu nak buat semua ni! Saya biarkan je apa orang nak nilai keburukkan saya sebab saya terbiasa jadi hati batu macam ni! Sebab saya hilang semangat saya! Memang takda siapa pun boleh tolong saya. Sebab tu saya pilih pendam. Saya taknak tarik orang dalam masalah saya. Kalau saya dah luahkan dan someone bagi respond. Saya akan bantah, sebab tak memenuhi respond yang sepatutnya.

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Maaf.

Read this if you feel lil bit of motivation. If you dont, just ignore it!

Find people who encourage you to keep growing 100% true.And this is why you sholud surround yourself with positive people. Find positive friends, stay away from negative people cause you'll be affected with their negativity. I know when some of us are truly loyal and care too much got backstabbed, we'll spend our nights and days thinking why would our friends do that. And if you notice, there will always be, at least, a friend, that will always make you feel bad, bring you down and many more. So should you change them into the better ones? Usually, it's hard to change people. If we think that it's hard for us to change for the better at something, just think again how hard would it be on changing someone else. They WILL NOT change unless they are the ones who wanted to change. So what kind of friends that you should seek for? Find friends that actually LISTENS to your problems, and try to help you even by doing little things just to make you happy. And find friends who encourage you to always do better at everything, find friends who nag at you when you're lazy just to make you finish your work or when you dont wanna eat because mood swings, find friends who care about you just like how much you care about them. Make sure they dont have bad mouth about you, they dont create things about you when they know your weaknesses. I dont need to mention their names just because they are already knows.

In conclusion, just dont waste your time with the wrong "best friends". Take your time to look around for a while. Dont rush and claim them as your best friends just because you're alone and you think you need a cool group/gang or anything.Mix around, make friends with everyone. Then choose. Someone with the qualities of a best friends. Remember, there are lots of people who can make you laugh, but not everyone cane make you feel truly happy inside and out. Find one, hope you have the motivation to move on from the bad friends. A lots of love for people who always with me.

Read this if you feel lil bit of motivation. If you dont, just ignore it!

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