Assalamualaikum.
You don't even remember what you said to me. Or how it fucked me up, that words made me cry for days, and just want to give up. I told you I was fine, I told you that I didn't mind, I told you I was sorry, I told you that I would try harder, but I wasn't fine. And I'm still not! The words you have said are in my mind everyday, that nothing to be sorry for. But you made it out as if it was my fault. I stop talking and became better at hiding. You don't even remember what you said to me, the way you made me feel. But I hope it made you happy. To see me crumble and fine.
#From now, I just want to try stop thinking of you. Might be its can made me feel better. As long as I can. :')
Aku masih lagi ingin mencuba,
Tetapi, tiada siapa yang tahu,
Sakit untuk ku hadapinya,
Perit untuk ku menahan segala petiran yang menyambar,
Ku menitiskan airmata kerna kegagalan,
Segalanya menjadi rumit malah ia sangat perit.
PERNAHKAH KAU TAHU?!
Aku amat merindui pada diriku,
Yang tidak mengambil kisah hal peribadi orang sekeliling,
Yang tidak sukakan kepada sosial,
Yang tidak ingin didekati oleh 'KAUM AJNABI',
Yang sentiasa kehausan beribadah,
Yang tidak pernah kenal erti mengalah!
AKU AMAT MERINDUINYA..
Dimanakah..
Kini ku masih didalam khayalan,
Khayalan yang penuh dusta,
Perit yang tidak terkata,
Tetapi masih terasa kemanisannya,
Manisnya bukanlah seperti gula,
Manisnya itu seperti ku dikelilingi kegelapan yang penuh duri,
Gelap yang tidak terkata,
Tidak mampu untuk ku melawan kemanisan duniawi.
Bagaimanakah..
Apakah diriku masih kuat?
Kuat untuk menjadi seorang yang tabah,
Tabah untuk segalanya,
Segalanya kerna ALLAH.
Masihkah....
Assalamualaikum.
Its from Dena Bahrin and I admit that I like her last quote which she said.
This ;
If the 'Love' makes you become worse. Let it go. It's hard. Allah knows and He will replace someone better for you. If the Love makes your relationship with family or beloved people worse, turn to Allah for decision, Allah knows the best. If you're in dilemma what you want and what make things better. Have faith in Allah, He knows what you've done. He knows what you've sacrificed. Dan, cinta itu memang perlukan pengorbanan.
Someone who really loves you will show you they want you, will prove that they need you, will remind you they love you. Will put you in the list, " To be in heaven, together, forever."
p/s : Bila kah jodoh itu akan datang semua nya kerja yang maha Esa, Kita manusia cuma jangan berhenti berdoa dan percaya pada kuasa Allah. Bagaimana Allah mampu ciptakan pelbagai perkara berlainan rupa, sifat & personaliti. Begitu juga kebahagiaan. Jangan terlalu berfikir sesuatu di luar jangkaan, tapi jangan pernah putus asa pada Allah yang maha memberi kebahagiaan.
Sincerely, Dena Bahrin.
